My Dearest Toby,
Yesterday it was St Valentine’s Day, the day for those that we love.
And I love you.
For years I read far too much and imagined realities where my eyes met the love of my life over a crowded room. I just never imagined that I would see him in an operating room, tiny, blue and clinging to life.
Because you are the love of my life darling boy.
I hope one day you truly understand what that means.
That one day you look into someone’s eyes and feel totally and utterly content.
So tonight I will cover you in kisses and then, when you are asleep, I will sweep the hair off your forehead and put my hand in your chest to feel you breathe, all the while marvelling in the fact you exist; that you are not just a figment of my overactive imagination.
Then I will sleep and I will be content.
Because I am, and always will be,
Your Mama xx